when i was a kid

when i was a kid 

i often thought

if i were to go into the jungle 

i would get lost 

i might not be able to get back home 

and, i would be finished 

but when i grow up 

i felt that i was wrong 

after i went to the city, i realized 

i got lost more deadly in city 

neither i could come back home 

nor i could be finished 

when i walk in the city 

i feel that i am walking in jail 

where there is 

neither clean air for me 

nor peace and silence

there is only, noise, pollution, lies and so on 

in the city, 

i walk, i talk, i work

i scream, i am angry, i suffer from anxiety 

i smile in depress and 

i am happy in despair 

i may look fine

but nothing is working well within me 

what the hell is going on

it seems that i am completely fine 

but, nothing is fine with me 

i don't feel that I am me 

but i am acting like I do 

what the hell is happening to me 

on the other hand 

when i go to the jungle 

i feel, birds are singing for me 

i feel, trees are dancing for me 

i feel, rivers are whistling for me 

i feel, wind is floating my mood in the nature 

the more i listen to the symphony of nature 

the more i understand the symphony of the nature 

the more i feel the symphony of the nature 

the more i realize and understand the symphony of nature 

the more i understand, the more i feel the symphony of nature 

it makes me feel alive, i am breathing all these into my senses

what i feel 

city is just wood 

once the tree dies

it becomes wood 

once the village dies 

it becomes city or senseless bigger village 

wherever i run or turn 

thousand of people are around me

but neither do i know anybody 

nor anybody knows me 

this totally is a dead tunnel

where i am alive with dead senses

how cities are dying under the light 

similarly, our senses are dying in the crowd 

dying sense marches restlessly 

it kills the truth and reality 

it shows, my shadow is more powerful than me 

in the city, i am dead, but my shadow is alive 

the stars and moon 

stand being my lights every night

the sun and sky 

come and give me energy everyday

the nature and creatures 

keep singing and dancing in their own motion and entertain me 

today, i realize 

i will never get lost in the jungle 

where i feel, happiness is reborned  

where, silence and peace is smiling 

where, solitude is consoling the attitude 

where, attitude forgets the longitude and latitude 

afterall, at some point 

my mood dances like trees 

my mood flows like rives 

my mood sings like birds 

my mood flies like wind 

where I could completely find myself

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