i stop and try to listen

one day 

i was walking along the river 

i heard some sound 

i stop and look around 

but i didn't see anything around 

i didn't see anybody around 

after a while

i kept walking 

the whisper continues

i was astonished 

i stop and try to listen 

but there is nothing around  

i didn't  move for a while 

i kept my ear open and closed my eyes and mouth 

some sound wave came through the air and enter to my ear 

suddenly it travels to my mind, heart and sense 

i was completely lost in that moment

i just stopped and listened the sound 

i am a river 

but i don't look like river now 

people are still calling me a river 

i don't have any idea yet 

who made me like this ?

how i became like this ?

i am thinking 

why i am flowing like this ? 

who was i before ?

who am i today ? 

i feel shame myself

but i don't know any of you do feel shame 

why are you walking around me? 

why are you seeing me ?

am i still sexy? 

am i still sacred ?

am i still drinkable? 

am i still  healable ? 

i know you don't have any answer 

but i don't know whom i could share this 

most of people who came around here 

they walk holding their nose 

they drive locking their window in car 

they run plugging the airphone into the ear  

Perhaps, Today 

people feel shame looking at me 

people feel shame touching to me 

people feel shame talking to me 

i am flowing from the middle of the city 

but i am feeling lonely either day or night 

Yesterday, I was a dream 

Today, i am a burden 

is this called the time? 

or this is a fate 

i am looking for an answer 

who the hell is ready to give me answer or listen me 

i am not sure 

whether i am right or wrong 

but i have to tell today 

no matter it is sounding or not 

but i have to break my silent 

it's too much already 

there is corporate philosophy

it keeps producing pollution 

it has formed/run various I/NGO 

I/NGO imagine a good slogan and sing it in multiple media 

and those media house also run by corporate group 

they are fooling us being for and against

I/NGO is a partner of corporate house 

most of I/INGO are Funded by corporate house

can we expect any changes from them? 

i think impossible and impossible 

it is against the ethics 

so it won't happen, trust me 

these days, i afraid 

if i see, people are marching here holding the banner of my name 

if i hear, people are protesting here shouting my name 

i feel unsecure with them 

i afraid with rich and powerful people in society 

i never need to afraid with normal people 

normal people are my friend 

they are my society, they always have concern for me 

but corporate houses are my enemies, they always play game against me 

they look better and wear better too but indeed they don't have better heart for me 

i cry, they laugh at me. i am silent, they tease me 

is there any medicine for them ?

indeed, they are more worse than covid for nature 

when will you discover vaccine for this kind of people? 

i hope i can vaccine for all these corporate house and I/NGO 

and also for those who add salt in injuries 

then after i will feel i reborn  and i flow naturally 

thank you for listening, that's it for today.  keep coming to listen me 

when my eyes opened  

my ears was thundered by thousands noise 

i asked myself who am i? why am i listening this? 

how many of you could listen this in your life 

have you even think our life without clean water? 

have you every think our life without clear river ? 

#Nepal 

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